My NEMESIS…

My NEMESIS…

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That’s right, I have found my dieting nemesis.  It goes by the delicious, deadly name of.. CAKE BATTER.  I love to bake, I really do.. I don’t do it often though as my kitchen makes me want to stab small holes into people with a knitting needle.  I did, however, bake last week on Thursday so I had some tasty treats to take to a friends for coffee we had planned.   I could have been sensible  but I chose flavour over calorie content.  I found the most delicious recipe that involves adding not just butter, but oil to your cakes but it makes them so soft and tasty!

The cakes themselves I can leave alone  but in the gooey, gloopy format of batter – I am weak.   I made sure that bowl was clean, like I even found my scraper and I scraped that bowl the the last inch of it’s plastic life and I ate the batter. I am not ashamed (ok, a little ashamed) – but it was so damn good. SO DAMN GOOD!  I then had to try a cake, of course… and then to be polite I had to eat one while I was at my friends!

To be honest I was good for the rest of the day, I barely ate anything with calorie content but apparently that was enough to send me into a bit of a spin, and ok, I did lose.. I lost 0.5 lb, which is so much better than a gain of course, but it did set me back a little.

It’s my own fault, my willpower can be shocking – especially at weekends if I go for a drink, I can’t just stop at one! Last weekend proves this – went in to a speakeasy word of mouth secret bar that had 10 coctktails on the menu, of course we had to try them all. I only had three full ones but then I went onto another bar and had 3 more, and I can’t even remember what I had at the last one but it involved pints of cider.  BAD BAD BAD!   The first cocktails also included things like butter, and jam… so yeah, it was kinda like eating a really weird alcoholic cake – except not.

I had fun though, and I suffered yesterday and just wanted to sleep all day – but I think its out of my system now, the caking, the drinking.. I just want to be healthy and lose more this week, so hold onto your hats, VEGETABLES, I am coming for you.

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Toast and Jam Muffin

Toast and Jam Muffin

So, Greggs – you know, Greggs the Baker which sells an array of tasty yet so bad for you goodies (as well as some better for you ones) – I noticed yesterday on my trip to get my youngest a sandwich that they were selling Toast and Jam Muffins.  WHAT?

WHAT??

Yes.  Toast flavoured muffin.  Bread flavoured cake. Whatever next?  Being a good girl, I didn’t buy one but I was intrigued, so being the wonderful brother he is (and lover of cakes) my older brother got one today at tea break (yeah we work in the same place) and he let both myself and my WW work companion buddy try a bit.  Just a small bit, and tbh that was enough.  It was ok, tasted a bit like eating a baguette with no butter on it, so pretty much just dry bread.  The muffin itself seemed a lot denser than a regular muffin, so really all Greggs have done is created a Bruffin or some Mufread, Mread, whatever you want to call it.  I can’t say I am dying to try it again, he, however, seemed happy with his purchase.

I came away with just a Skinny Capp and I had a Banana for breakfast, so I won’t be partaking in cake.   I had a super filling Dinner last night though.  I had a bunch of points left as I’d eaten soup again for Lunch and I ended up having four slices of 50/50 – toasted – with 2 scrambled eggs and some cooked plum tomatoes, it was lovely and so so filling!  I am really hoping to lose again this week but I am not sure if my weekend hindered me,  only a few days to find out.

I need to buy new jeans, so I am hoping to have lost a dress size.  I also hope to win the lottery and that David Boreanez will sweep me off my feet, think the chances of all are pretty slim by the weekend.  Damn it.

Tuesday… again.

Tuesday… again.

I have mentioned before Tuesdays are my nemesis.  They are my longest day out of the house and dinner seems to fall apart, I had every intention of putting something in the slow cooker today, but I didn’t.  So there.

Yesterday I went out with my mum too, and I hadn’t eaten that many points during the day, which left me with over 14 to use at night, which at 8pm doesn’t fill me with joy as I try not to eat too much past 7.30pm.  I didn’t know what I wanted, I made soup to bring to work today which was Cauliflower, Broccoli and Cabbage – which of course was 0 points, it tasted a little… green… so I threw 4 points worth of Light Philly into it and it creamed it up and made it taste DELICIOUS! But still, thats only 1 point per serving so THAT was no good.

What is a fat girl to to when her fridge is filled with 0 point items?! I could have had a chocolate bar,  or ten packets of crisps (ok maybe 2) or cake, oh god yes cake.  But I really fancied a Crisp Sandwich, and I was like NO HEATHER, NO YOU CAN’T… but you know what? I could and I did and I bloody loved it.  Four slices of Crustless 50/50, a light spread of butter to cement all that crap together and 1 packet of Weightwatchers Crinkle Cut Crisps. GOD – IT WAS SO GOOD.

I was puffed up like a peacock all yeahhhh mothertruckers I am on a DIET and here I am scoffing a Crisp Sandwich, ALL PRAISE THE CRISP SANDWICH.

Just another victory for a fat girl eating what she wants as long as she sticks to the rules, Diet 0 – Heather 1.

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Well! I HAD A LOSS!  I wasn’t sure what to expect, I went all week and didn’t feel too hungry, I didn’t cut anything out.. I drank a LOT of Port one evening.   But I still managed a loss.  I don’t know what to put it down to, I think the fact if I snacked I made sure I snacked on fruit, or I drank water.  Instead of heading for the crisps or chocolate I had a banana or an apple.  I also made a vat of low point soup which was REALLY filling.  So my Soupmaker is now in use a lot more.   I did, however, celebrate my loss in style with more Booze, but I managed to not eat everything in sight the next day, I only have myself to blame if I don’t lose this week, but it was a really good boost to know that I can do it, and I can do it without cutting lots out.

Today I had Melba Toasts and Light Philly for lunch and it filled a hole, needed some salad to go with it really but I was too busy watching scenes from Grand Theft Auto happening in my street at 7am to worry about it, and by the time that was all over and the PoPoRozzers had left the vicinity, I had to get my kids ready and my lunch was just shoved in a bag!

I am super happy with  my first week loss, and I hopefully, shall continue! ❤

Plodding on.

Plodding on.

Here I am,  plodding on!  

I said when I started going to classes I’d not get on the scales at home,  we all know scales can be off and I told myself nope,  wait until you go the class and let that me your only time on the scales,  don’t be ruled by it.  So weigh in..  It’s kinda like a Kinder Egg,  a really shitty kinder egg with no chocolate,  no toy but if you’re lucky perhaps carrying around a little less fat.

I’ve not done so great yet today as I’ve been out and about,  I’ve had fruit,  coffee,  a slice of toast and then my stomach wigged out and I had a packet of crisps.   One of my faves,  Seabrooks Sea Salted.   Only a small bag from a multipack,  won’t be too bad.   FIVE BLOODY POINTS!! oh well,  they were great, and I shared with the dog.

In most aspects of life I am and always have beeb fairly organised,  but lately with everything going on around me I’ve just lost the art of concentration and general common sense seems to have seeped from my brain and been replaced with gibberish.

I need to plan,  meal plan,  snack plan,  life plan.  Planning is key.   Oh I guess I also have to accept my shitty Kinder Egg weigh in is better for me than a chocolate one,  so acceptance and planning.  That’s what I need.

It’s Hump Day!

It’s Hump Day!

I am half way through my first week back counting EVERYTHING I put into my mouth, and I haven’t murdered anyone yet.

Actually that isn’t true, I almost murdered someone last night when I went to my cupboards and wanted to find my Chocolate Hot Shot to give my pudding a hint of chocolate to find it had GONE. TUT.

I need to get myself back into the routine of smoothies for breakfast, but at the minute I just tend to grab some fruit then have another piece of fruit with my 10am coffee (skimmed, of course), so yesterday was quite a low points day.  Fruit for Brekkie, 2 points of Soup for Lunch with yet more Fruit, and then that left me with an astonishing amount of points for Tea!  Not a bad thing, except Tuesdays are so long for me, I finish work at 5pm, but my youngest has her Rainbows group at 5.30pm-6.30pm, so my SiL brings her to my workplace, we snack her and my niece up, we deliver them to Rainbows and by the time I am home its 5.45pm, then I have to make sure my adorable yet incontinent little pug hasn’t crapped the hell out of the house as soon as I am home and of course by then the Teen is normally dying of starvation, so by the time I have finished faffing, found time to use the toilet, check my post and breathe I have to leave again to pick her up which means my day seems SO long, and by the time I am home and I am sorted I don’t feel like prepping a big dinner.

My plan in future is to slow cook something on Tuesdays, but last night I was like “crap” because I had so many points and nothing I really wanted to eat.  My youngest requested Fishfingers and Smiley Faces, AHA! I thought.. FISHFINGER SANDWICHES.  So thats what I did – and they were bloody delightful.

Dieting isn’t always about eating the best looking salad, avoiding all fats and fried foods, it’s about balance and I really bloody loved my Fishfinger Sarnie! – OK I have an air-fryer so nothing is deep fried, but still.  I am loving the fact that I can still eat the silly things, along with the healthy, it’s just all about the balance.

My BIG FAT DIARY

My BIG FAT DIARY

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I did it, I got myself up and out bright and early on a Saturday AM and I joined the local Weightwatchers meeting. I needed to do it, I need the support (aka the shame of someone weighing me).  I was, however, pleasantly surprised to find I weighed nearly 7lbs less than I thought I did, so that was nice!

The leader is lovely and the group seem really nice, and we don’t have to sit around in a circle and talk about ourselves, which is a winner in my book.  I was really pleased I went, and I started counting points right away!   I did stumble a bit on Saturday night as I went out, and I did eat, and I did drink… but I pointed it all and started back on Sunday fresh as a daisy!

My experiments with Jar Salads and Soups will continue, I am in a soupy mood at the moment, so I dug out my soupmaker yesterday and threw in a random selection – Potatoes, Mushrooms, Vege Stock, Onion and some Chorizo I found floating about (not literally, ew) and all in all it tasted pretty good, and was only 7 points for over a litre of delicious soup, which will last me three days,  GET IN!

This is my soup in all its glory

And to quote my brother “Aren’t I lucky? I got a chunky bit” – bonus points if you get the film reference.