I am feeling a little overwhelmed with life. I am now sticking to my personal plan (or trying to) and I am struggling a little with my macros. I have been told that to just try my best to stick to them, but I am finding it hard at times! High Carb days leave me feeling SOOOO bloated and gross, and tired. But I haven’t been sleeping well either so I need to sort that out. I love high protein days though – however, I do struggle to eat 150g of protein a day while keeping my carbs at 100, so high carb days do have an upside, although then it’s a low fat day! I have digits flying through my brain! I am also sticking to my work outs, they aren’t massive or huge but I feel like I am doing something, and sticking to my 7k minimum steps a day too – still need to drink more water though – swings and roundabouts.
I did, however, lost 2.6lbs last week, so I was dead chuffed!
The other things overwhelming me is that I seem to have chosen to do a bunch of things at the same time, and my time management is shocking. I have started to retake my Maths GCSE, I am doing the dieting/working out, I am trying to keep on top of the house work etc and sort the clutter out, and I am also learning new things at work but also considering my future and where I could go/what I can do. That’s all on top of relationships and organising a hen party and trying to fit into a dress for a wedding (not mine, boo) – I feel a little head explodey! I need to schedule times for things and stick to it.
Mon/Tues I struggle – I work until 5 and then my youngest has a club on the Tues until 6.30, so I barely touch the ground at home until 7pm, and Tues is a high protein day so I just tend to ram meat in my mouth (if you know what I mean – hurr) and Mondays I have to collect her from my mums after work and because I now walk everywhere it takes longer and then I get home and the house is a mess and there are teens lounging around in it drinking all my fizzy vimto and cooking scrambled eggs in every bowl in the house in the microwave and I just feel like I want to lose my shit!
Nobody really does a thing in the house but me – fair enough there are other jobs and schools and study to take into consideration, but I am not just a housewife, I work, I am trying to study myself, I am trying to get fit and healthy and do a billion things at once and I am not superwoman. Needless to say I lose the plot fairly often, but I don’t want to. SCHEDULE AND PLAN! That is what I must do.
Maybe the slow cooker needs to come out on a Mon/Tues, or a quick dinner like Jacket Spuds at the ready, or maybe the teen can show some initiative and try cooking (probably not tho – eh). Weds/Thurs/Fri I don’t feel so bad, I only work half a day Weds, but I tend to go home, relax and then it’s school pick up time. Thurs/Fri the last few weeks I’ve tried to be social, meet friends, do things.. I need to not do that so often I think – spend some quiet time studying or cleaning the house – but UGH.. the lure of toddlers and babies and friends and lunches are too much!
I’m also broke, permanently. But.. I do have a 4 day trip to Paris planned with a girlfriend, so I am looking forward to that in August.
ANYWAY. THATS MY LIFE. BAI.