Hello!

Hello!

Sup, nuggets? MMM NUGGETS!

WELL! I’ve had a pretty darn tootin’ good week – but I don’t think I’ve lost anything again! BOO! I had a bit of a meltdown on my groups FB page and was all WAAAAAH, but like people pointed out, I lost 7lbs over two weeks, not losing for a week or two isn’t a bad thing, it could be that my body is adjusting, and no matter what I am still putting healthier things into it.

Sometimes with SW I don’t think I eat enough, some days I don’t have any syns at all, I rarely reach 15, so next week I think I am going to try and start eating at LEAST my 5 a day, I did that for the first two weeks and oh look, I lost weight!  But the scales will tell tomorrow, also I’ve measured myself, so maybe I’ll have lost half an inch or something instead of a lb!

I did my first attempt yesterday at the Slimming World Roulade.  Boy oh BOY was I surprised at how well it turned out and how tasty it was! Definitely no Victoria Sponge with lashings of buttercream, but a good fix for a sweet tooth.

Here it is! I was soooo proud of it! I honestly thought it would taste like cold sugary omelette with yoghurty soft cheese and fruit, but it didn’t and it definitely did the trick,  that whole thing up there is 3syns for the ENTIRE thing, and that only happened because I shoved a White Chocolate Options sachet in with the Quark mixture for a bit of a better taste.

Here is the recipe:

Serves 1-6 (depending on how greedy you’re feeling!)

Virtually syn-free on all plans

Ingredients:

250g quark

4 eggs

5 tablespoons granulated sweetener

1 teaspoon baking powder (0.5 syns)

2 x 1 teaspoons vanilla extract

100g 0% fromage frais (or muller light/whatever)

fruit of your choice, or you could use jam (2 syns per tablespoon)

Method:

Separate the eggs and beat the whites until stiff

In another bowl, mix the yolks, 1 teaspoon vanilla extract, baking powder, half the quark and 4 tablespoons of the sweetener

Whisk half of the egg whites into the yolks mixture, then carefully fold in the rest

Pour mixture into a tray lined with baking paper. Bake in a pre-heated 180C oven for 20 minutes or until golden and cooked

Mix the remaining quark, fromage frais, 1 tablespoon sweetener and 1 teaspoon vanilla extract (I added White Chocolate Options at this point too – 2.5 syns)

Spread the fromage frais mixture over the cooled cake and top with fruit (I used 150g raspberries) or jam or whatever (remember to syn!)

Roll up and serve

The eldest child had some, other ppl had some, some looked at it and was like LOLNOPE – but overall, I am impressed!

GOD BLESS THE FOOD ANOMALY THAT IS QUARK!

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Weigh Day Number 2!

Weigh Day Number 2!

HAYYY YOU GUIIIIIIISE – I DID IT!  I lost 3lbs this week to get to my first half a stone and just 2 weeks in! Now, I do have a lot to lose (well, a few stone) but I am so so so so CHUFFED!

I got my nifty little sticker and they asked if I wanted a certificate and of course I was all HELLL YEAH! I want to document my achievements so that it spurs me on!   If I get to 1stone lost I get a present (not from Slimming World, obvs) – so that is motivation in itself! Well that and you know, being healthy and shit.

Apparently I have lost the equivalent of 30 sticks of butter, I did say I wonder if I ate 30 sticks of butter if I’d put 7lbs on, and then it was suggested I use Nangerine™ (you know, that butter you used to have at your Nans that tasted like cheap margarine but wasn’t? Yeah I trademarked that – REALLY REALLY) – but I think I’ll give it a miss.

I did keep a diary this week and I was quite surprised by the fact that I lost as much because I thought I ate a lot!

My typical day consists of fruit when I wake up and a fizzy drink (soz water, you just don’t cut it) – then I have a skinny latte/capp around 10am at work, at around 10.30 I have my overnight oats (god bless them) and then I have my lunch which is usually syn free, or just a handful of syns and then at night I cook something, I’ve had mince, chicken and even garlic bread this week – and I also had a whole bottle of low calorie wine (yum) at my besties for catch up night along with crackers, cheese and meats that were not syn free in any way shape or form so I am over the moon!

One thing I did do last week was make my own SW Donuts:

I was very skeptical – but they turned out great.  Recipe is:

  • 1 Wholemeal Roll (I used my HExB)
  • Filling if desired (I used 1.5 syns of Jam)
  • Frylight
  • Sweetner

You poke a hole in the roll, fill with your filling (or I guess you could cut the roll with a cutter and make ring donuts, no filling needed and less syns), spray with frylight, roll in sweetner and then lob in a hot oven (about 180/200) for around 10 mins.  VOILA!

I was so surprised at how good it tasted, I really did just expect it to taste like a hot jam sandwich.  I guess if you can’t use your HExB it is a hefty synned treat at around 6syns depending on your size of roll, but hey – it’s lower than a regular donut!

I am excited for next weeks weigh in now, I just hope I keep it up – I’d be happy (I wouldn’t really) with 1lb a week, lose a stone and a bit before Christmas!  I know I need to up my exercise but I always feel better doing that after I’ve shifted a few lbs, my knees are not the best.

ANYWAY! YAY!

My NEMESIS…

My NEMESIS…

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That’s right, I have found my dieting nemesis.  It goes by the delicious, deadly name of.. CAKE BATTER.  I love to bake, I really do.. I don’t do it often though as my kitchen makes me want to stab small holes into people with a knitting needle.  I did, however, bake last week on Thursday so I had some tasty treats to take to a friends for coffee we had planned.   I could have been sensible  but I chose flavour over calorie content.  I found the most delicious recipe that involves adding not just butter, but oil to your cakes but it makes them so soft and tasty!

The cakes themselves I can leave alone  but in the gooey, gloopy format of batter – I am weak.   I made sure that bowl was clean, like I even found my scraper and I scraped that bowl the the last inch of it’s plastic life and I ate the batter. I am not ashamed (ok, a little ashamed) – but it was so damn good. SO DAMN GOOD!  I then had to try a cake, of course… and then to be polite I had to eat one while I was at my friends!

To be honest I was good for the rest of the day, I barely ate anything with calorie content but apparently that was enough to send me into a bit of a spin, and ok, I did lose.. I lost 0.5 lb, which is so much better than a gain of course, but it did set me back a little.

It’s my own fault, my willpower can be shocking – especially at weekends if I go for a drink, I can’t just stop at one! Last weekend proves this – went in to a speakeasy word of mouth secret bar that had 10 coctktails on the menu, of course we had to try them all. I only had three full ones but then I went onto another bar and had 3 more, and I can’t even remember what I had at the last one but it involved pints of cider.  BAD BAD BAD!   The first cocktails also included things like butter, and jam… so yeah, it was kinda like eating a really weird alcoholic cake – except not.

I had fun though, and I suffered yesterday and just wanted to sleep all day – but I think its out of my system now, the caking, the drinking.. I just want to be healthy and lose more this week, so hold onto your hats, VEGETABLES, I am coming for you.

Tuesday… again.

Tuesday… again.

I have mentioned before Tuesdays are my nemesis.  They are my longest day out of the house and dinner seems to fall apart, I had every intention of putting something in the slow cooker today, but I didn’t.  So there.

Yesterday I went out with my mum too, and I hadn’t eaten that many points during the day, which left me with over 14 to use at night, which at 8pm doesn’t fill me with joy as I try not to eat too much past 7.30pm.  I didn’t know what I wanted, I made soup to bring to work today which was Cauliflower, Broccoli and Cabbage – which of course was 0 points, it tasted a little… green… so I threw 4 points worth of Light Philly into it and it creamed it up and made it taste DELICIOUS! But still, thats only 1 point per serving so THAT was no good.

What is a fat girl to to when her fridge is filled with 0 point items?! I could have had a chocolate bar,  or ten packets of crisps (ok maybe 2) or cake, oh god yes cake.  But I really fancied a Crisp Sandwich, and I was like NO HEATHER, NO YOU CAN’T… but you know what? I could and I did and I bloody loved it.  Four slices of Crustless 50/50, a light spread of butter to cement all that crap together and 1 packet of Weightwatchers Crinkle Cut Crisps. GOD – IT WAS SO GOOD.

I was puffed up like a peacock all yeahhhh mothertruckers I am on a DIET and here I am scoffing a Crisp Sandwich, ALL PRAISE THE CRISP SANDWICH.

Just another victory for a fat girl eating what she wants as long as she sticks to the rules, Diet 0 – Heather 1.

It’s Hump Day!

It’s Hump Day!

I am half way through my first week back counting EVERYTHING I put into my mouth, and I haven’t murdered anyone yet.

Actually that isn’t true, I almost murdered someone last night when I went to my cupboards and wanted to find my Chocolate Hot Shot to give my pudding a hint of chocolate to find it had GONE. TUT.

I need to get myself back into the routine of smoothies for breakfast, but at the minute I just tend to grab some fruit then have another piece of fruit with my 10am coffee (skimmed, of course), so yesterday was quite a low points day.  Fruit for Brekkie, 2 points of Soup for Lunch with yet more Fruit, and then that left me with an astonishing amount of points for Tea!  Not a bad thing, except Tuesdays are so long for me, I finish work at 5pm, but my youngest has her Rainbows group at 5.30pm-6.30pm, so my SiL brings her to my workplace, we snack her and my niece up, we deliver them to Rainbows and by the time I am home its 5.45pm, then I have to make sure my adorable yet incontinent little pug hasn’t crapped the hell out of the house as soon as I am home and of course by then the Teen is normally dying of starvation, so by the time I have finished faffing, found time to use the toilet, check my post and breathe I have to leave again to pick her up which means my day seems SO long, and by the time I am home and I am sorted I don’t feel like prepping a big dinner.

My plan in future is to slow cook something on Tuesdays, but last night I was like “crap” because I had so many points and nothing I really wanted to eat.  My youngest requested Fishfingers and Smiley Faces, AHA! I thought.. FISHFINGER SANDWICHES.  So thats what I did – and they were bloody delightful.

Dieting isn’t always about eating the best looking salad, avoiding all fats and fried foods, it’s about balance and I really bloody loved my Fishfinger Sarnie! – OK I have an air-fryer so nothing is deep fried, but still.  I am loving the fact that I can still eat the silly things, along with the healthy, it’s just all about the balance.

Hello, World

Hello, World

Hi!

I decided (again) to start a RL blog, I have various dotted over the place but none I have actually stuck to for any length of time, but I feel I probably should for encouragement and well… just getting the feels out.

I read a plurk today that I don’t think was aimed at me, but I know I can relate to and it really made me think. Am I being PITY ME all the time? For the past couple of years I have been going through a few changes in my RL that has caused a lot of pain as well as a lot of misery but also I have experienced things I’ve always felt I was missing out on, and had some of the best times and it hasn’t been easy, not at all, it still isn’t. I needed change in my life (or thought I did) so I went out and I changed some stuff, not in a case of grass is greener, I am not that naive, but a case of the grass is a different green. Of course the grass is a different green, it’s 50 shades of green or more, but each patch of grass you water comes with it’s own negatives as well as positives and I found that out, over and over again.

It’s left me feeling very emotionally wary and a little bit bewildered with myself to be honest. A few years ago I was happy with the way my life was going, then all of a sudden I had this “I need to find me” moment and now.. now I am not. I’ve put on a lot of weight, I have a lot more grey hairs and I am very down on myself as a person both mentally and physically. This is what I need to change.

SO! What am I doing you ask? Well for ages I’ve just been sat here whinging about it to my close friends and just letting a lot of rage and sadness build, but it’s got to a point where big changes are happening, changes that will hurt but will push me once and for all to “sort my life out” as I like to put it, one way or another.

I am starting WeightWatchers classes again Saturday, because I cannot do it myself, I have tried and failed. I have also found a ladies only gym that I am super interested in after I sort my finances out, and I am looking at evening classes to further skills in things I enjoy.

I am a bit of a negative nancy, but not in a pity me way, or thats not how I mean it to come across, I just.. I am unhappy with my life but I know that there is only one person to change that, and that is me.

I have beautiful kids that stress me out but have their health (mostly), I have my health (mostly), I have a lot of friends and family around me that love me an are there for me, I have a roof over my head, food in my belly (too much! HA!), I have a job (even if it sends me loopy at times).. I have gorgeous pets, I have a lot of things that I am thankful for that sometimes make life hard, but make it worthwhile too.

I also just tried my swimmers on and they fit! YAY!     So thanks for putting up with me and all my whinging whether you are on my FB, plurk, or just have me in your ear, you do more help than you realise with a situation that really, you know nothing about. Because not all of us know everything about what a person is going through, big or small, because not everyone tells everyone everything, and that is something I need to remember myself during my intolerant times