Week 6: PRAISE BE TO THE FOOD LAWD!

Week 6: PRAISE BE TO THE FOOD LAWD!

 

IT’S A PRE CHRISTMAS MIRACLE!  Ok, so I wasn’t THAT bad last week, I didn’t eat tons of crap, but I did down some booze on Saturday and like I said earlier, hoovered up around the kids food Sunday, but I was expecting a small gain, I was hopeful for a maintain! This little half a pound has really made me chuffed to bits!   I am so determined to get more next week, obviously.   I have 2.5lbs to go to my first stone, and it’s only week 6!! I am so happy right now! 😀

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It’s WEIGH IN DAYYY!!!

It’s WEIGH IN DAYYY!!!

Ye gods, I am dreading tonight! I am hoping for a maintain, well no.. obviously I am hoping for a loss! But a maintain would do me right.

Do you get all NOOOOOOOOOOO *dreadfilled* when it’s W-In DAY!?  I tend to make this my light day for eating, I usually have Overnight Oats in the morning, then another yoghurt filled with fruit pot for lunch, that takes me to weigh in at 7pm and then I get home and stuff my face!!   Probably not the best plan, but weighing in at night is a pain in teh butt.   I don’t feel I can eat much because I want my weight to be lower, for example if we went for a Pub Lunch, I’d probably stick to Soup or Salad cos it’s light.   I dunno, I overthink!

I have been very tired and lazy this week with food and I think the scales will show that, it’s been an exhausting week for no real reason!  Maybe its my time of the month (which visits in disguise randomly, without actually being a proper thing – but with all the symptomns!)… but I am hoping for a weigh in day miracle!

MAINTAIN OR LOSE, YO!  WHICH WILL IT BE?!

Wobbly Wagon! HALP!

Wobbly Wagon! HALP!

Ugh.  I feel poop today, and it is all my own doing.   I went out on Saturday night for the first time since I started Slimming World again, and while I did not order a kebab at 1am, or eat a 12″ meat laden pizza, I did down a drink or two.  Now, that shouldn’t have affected me much and tbh it didn’t. I made sure I ate before I went out, so the drink didn’t even touch the sides, and I stuck to one kind, and also kept up with the water in between too.  It wasn’t a riotous night, just a few girls catching up, it was fun! I had a great time.

Now, yesterday it all fell apart. I wasn’t hungover in the slightest, but I was really tired, and tired = lazy.  I started off well! Muller Light and cuppa charrrrr, I didn’t really do lunch as I wasn’t hungry.. and I had a bacon/heck sausage toastie on HExB for Tea..   The kids ordered out for Pizza, I didn’t even think of ordering a thing, but of course then it hit me. THE MUNCHIES. I hoovered up bits of pizza they left, then I ate about 10 marshmallows, then one of them had a bowl of creamy rice pudding and decided she didn’t want it so I had it, oh my god it tasted SOOOOOoooOOOO good, but I knew I’d regret it, and I do.

I hopped on the scales (which I know is not helpful) this AM and was like NOOOOOOOOOOOO! I think I’ll be lucky if I maintain this week, I expect to gain, only a small one, but I do and I want to kick myself.  I had been so upbeat about the diet, so happy doing it! Didn’t even FEEL like a diet, but it all sort of just fell apart a little bit for an hour or so!  Now, I am not going to turn a bad night into a bad week, I am straight back on plan today, but there is a voice niggling saying “what’s the point, eat what you want! – HAVE MORE RICE PUDDING!” but I know it’s because I am tired and disappointed in myself. We all faulter, I know that, but meh! TUT!

I am just so tired! I feel I need so much more energy just to focus, I’ve been ignoring it and just ploughing forward trying my best.  Maybe I need to  change it up a little.  I quite often do not eat my syns at all, not even 1 – this is because the food I have fills me up and it’s free!  The first few weeks as I said in my last post I think I tried harder to make sure I ate at least 5 a day, so I had little treats, did eat some syns, but also filled up on the free goodies, so in todays lunch I added a packet of Hula Pufts! 3.5 each, it’s a start! I’m sure I’ll have a few with dinner too!

I am also going to start physically writing my food down, I do use the online thing but if I’m on my phone sometimes it’s a faff and I think oh i’ll do it later, then I forget.  So keeping it written down will help me stay focused.

I blame all of this entirely on Monday, even though it happened over the weekend, the dreaded monday woe kicked in early! DAMN!

It’s not a diet…

It’s not a diet…

.. it’s a lifestyle change.

I have seen people say that and scoffed at it, SURREEEE, SUREEEEEE! Chinny reckonnnnnn.  But I am finally seeing what they mean.  There are a few people that rib me about my food choices now “that can’t be filling”, “I’d rather eat what I want”, “I bet you spend loads more on food now”, “I lost 9lbs my first week of dieting and I gave up on the first morning and ate what I want – LOL”.  SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP!

I mean I can take peoples opinions, and I can take their ribbing, but I do get frustrated when it’s just sooo far from the truth, or just really #irritating (some ppl will know what I mean!).

I struggle with my weight, I wish I was as fat as I was when I thought I was fat at 21.  OH YES.  But I am not, I have let the excuse of having kids, and finding a love for pizza, and chelsea buns.. and drinking like I am a fish get to me, and my body.   I hate exercise, HATE IT, in every form (well,  most) – and I am not one for eating ridiculously healthy foods.  But since being on Slimming World I have tried to embrace the healthier side of life more.   I wouldn’t have touched Houmous with a barge pole 6 months ago, now I adore it for lunch with oodles of carrot sticks and it’s surprisingly filling!   I wouldn’t have ever put beetroot in a cake to try and make it a tad better, or made my own Jaffa Cakes for fun using oats and a mullerlight, but I am not doing these things because I feel I have to, I am doing them because I am enjoying it.

I wish I could roll out of bed and lose 9lbs without trying, but I don’t mind trying different things like this to try and get it off, and keep it off.  I am not spending loads more on shopping – I am spending more on the right things like fruit, veg and meat instead of crisps and booze, so I may spend a tad more, but I waste a LOT less, I’ve become a lot more conscious that I have meat in the fridge that needs using instead of grabbing a ready meal, or a bag of potatoes sitting there instead of ordering a pizza, or going to McD’s.   It may take me more time to prep food too, but its so much more filling than 3 packets of crisps and a can of coke.

I have cut down on my coffee and upped my tea intake, I have bought fruit tea by the bucket load and I am LOVING it, it’s a good way to get water in too, I get so bored of water.  I went to Starbucks and chose FRUIT instead of a Cheese and Marmite Panini, I have become one of those people, but I’m ok with it.

This is week 5 of my SW adventure (for the 2nd time) and I’m already 10lbs down.  I have many lbs to go and I do feel I am going to lose one week, maintain the next, lose the next etc.. which I don’t want to do, I need to see it going or I start to wobble.  But I didn’t the week before last when I maintained, I picked myself up and carried on, and that’s what I’ll do every week if I don’t lose.

So it’s not so much a diet in my head, I don’t feel like I am cutting everything out, I am just making wiser choices.  I still eat chocolate, I just take more care about how much.  I have a mini Fudge in my lunch today instead of a full size.   I still eat crisps, I just make my own.   I haven’t cut anything out, I am just more aware of the foods that help me lose weight vs the ones that seem to make me heavier.

So, take your I lost 9lb in a week without trying and shove it up yer bum!  Take your comments about my food bills raising sky high and read my receipts and weep!  My food might not be a butter laden PB&J sandwich with a Twirl and fat Coke for lunch, but my carrot sticks fill me up just fine thanks!

Week 3!

Week 3!

I am not very happy with this, but not unhappy either.  Last week I went out a few times, I managed to have half a cheese and tomato pizza at the tattoo convention, 2 cocktails during happy hour at Frankie and Bennys, and I also took the kids to BK and had Chicken Fries and some Mozzarella dippers, oh and I absent mindedly swept a snack pork pie into my mouth that the small child left on her plate, so I cannot and should not grumble!   I made the choices, I need to suck it up!  It could have been worse.

Determined to get back on it tho, tracking properly again on the website, I bought a lovely diary to fill out but unless I carry it around I forget, but I aim to log it SOMEWHERE.   I already messed up today thinking 2 Slimming World bars were my HExB, turns out I was only allowed one, so that’s 6 syns down already, just goes to show you need to be so vigilant!   Everyone always says oh i don’t want to follow a diet I just want to eat better, which essentially happens when you do Slimming World, I don’t feel like I am missing out or it’s a massive trauma that I need special food for, I just need to remember I can’t shovel it all in, well I can, but I will have to suck up any gains 😛

I also decided today I want to be a runner, yes, I want to be one of THOSE ppl.   I see ppl on my FB running and getting medals and I’m like I WANT A DAMN MEDAL, MAN!  So I am going to look into getting a treadmill cos running in public? LOLNOTRIGHTNOWLOL.  And I am going to do my C25k, up it to C210k once i’m a bit fitter then start actually entering races and shit, well not races, I don’t want to WIN, I just want to finish.

SO THERE. HAPPY POST WEIGH DAY CRAZY DECISIONS!

My NEMESIS…

My NEMESIS…

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That’s right, I have found my dieting nemesis.  It goes by the delicious, deadly name of.. CAKE BATTER.  I love to bake, I really do.. I don’t do it often though as my kitchen makes me want to stab small holes into people with a knitting needle.  I did, however, bake last week on Thursday so I had some tasty treats to take to a friends for coffee we had planned.   I could have been sensible  but I chose flavour over calorie content.  I found the most delicious recipe that involves adding not just butter, but oil to your cakes but it makes them so soft and tasty!

The cakes themselves I can leave alone  but in the gooey, gloopy format of batter – I am weak.   I made sure that bowl was clean, like I even found my scraper and I scraped that bowl the the last inch of it’s plastic life and I ate the batter. I am not ashamed (ok, a little ashamed) – but it was so damn good. SO DAMN GOOD!  I then had to try a cake, of course… and then to be polite I had to eat one while I was at my friends!

To be honest I was good for the rest of the day, I barely ate anything with calorie content but apparently that was enough to send me into a bit of a spin, and ok, I did lose.. I lost 0.5 lb, which is so much better than a gain of course, but it did set me back a little.

It’s my own fault, my willpower can be shocking – especially at weekends if I go for a drink, I can’t just stop at one! Last weekend proves this – went in to a speakeasy word of mouth secret bar that had 10 coctktails on the menu, of course we had to try them all. I only had three full ones but then I went onto another bar and had 3 more, and I can’t even remember what I had at the last one but it involved pints of cider.  BAD BAD BAD!   The first cocktails also included things like butter, and jam… so yeah, it was kinda like eating a really weird alcoholic cake – except not.

I had fun though, and I suffered yesterday and just wanted to sleep all day – but I think its out of my system now, the caking, the drinking.. I just want to be healthy and lose more this week, so hold onto your hats, VEGETABLES, I am coming for you.

Toast and Jam Muffin

Toast and Jam Muffin

So, Greggs – you know, Greggs the Baker which sells an array of tasty yet so bad for you goodies (as well as some better for you ones) – I noticed yesterday on my trip to get my youngest a sandwich that they were selling Toast and Jam Muffins.  WHAT?

WHAT??

Yes.  Toast flavoured muffin.  Bread flavoured cake. Whatever next?  Being a good girl, I didn’t buy one but I was intrigued, so being the wonderful brother he is (and lover of cakes) my older brother got one today at tea break (yeah we work in the same place) and he let both myself and my WW work companion buddy try a bit.  Just a small bit, and tbh that was enough.  It was ok, tasted a bit like eating a baguette with no butter on it, so pretty much just dry bread.  The muffin itself seemed a lot denser than a regular muffin, so really all Greggs have done is created a Bruffin or some Mufread, Mread, whatever you want to call it.  I can’t say I am dying to try it again, he, however, seemed happy with his purchase.

I came away with just a Skinny Capp and I had a Banana for breakfast, so I won’t be partaking in cake.   I had a super filling Dinner last night though.  I had a bunch of points left as I’d eaten soup again for Lunch and I ended up having four slices of 50/50 – toasted – with 2 scrambled eggs and some cooked plum tomatoes, it was lovely and so so filling!  I am really hoping to lose again this week but I am not sure if my weekend hindered me,  only a few days to find out.

I need to buy new jeans, so I am hoping to have lost a dress size.  I also hope to win the lottery and that David Boreanez will sweep me off my feet, think the chances of all are pretty slim by the weekend.  Damn it.