Ugh. I feel poop today, and it is all my own doing. I went out on Saturday night for the first time since I started Slimming World again, and while I did not order a kebab at 1am, or eat a 12″ meat laden pizza, I did down a drink or two. Now, that shouldn’t have affected me much and tbh it didn’t. I made sure I ate before I went out, so the drink didn’t even touch the sides, and I stuck to one kind, and also kept up with the water in between too. It wasn’t a riotous night, just a few girls catching up, it was fun! I had a great time.
Now, yesterday it all fell apart. I wasn’t hungover in the slightest, but I was really tired, and tired = lazy. I started off well! Muller Light and cuppa charrrrr, I didn’t really do lunch as I wasn’t hungry.. and I had a bacon/heck sausage toastie on HExB for Tea.. The kids ordered out for Pizza, I didn’t even think of ordering a thing, but of course then it hit me. THE MUNCHIES. I hoovered up bits of pizza they left, then I ate about 10 marshmallows, then one of them had a bowl of creamy rice pudding and decided she didn’t want it so I had it, oh my god it tasted SOOOOOoooOOOO good, but I knew I’d regret it, and I do.
I hopped on the scales (which I know is not helpful) this AM and was like NOOOOOOOOOOOO! I think I’ll be lucky if I maintain this week, I expect to gain, only a small one, but I do and I want to kick myself. I had been so upbeat about the diet, so happy doing it! Didn’t even FEEL like a diet, but it all sort of just fell apart a little bit for an hour or so! Now, I am not going to turn a bad night into a bad week, I am straight back on plan today, but there is a voice niggling saying “what’s the point, eat what you want! – HAVE MORE RICE PUDDING!” but I know it’s because I am tired and disappointed in myself. We all faulter, I know that, but meh! TUT!
I am just so tired! I feel I need so much more energy just to focus, I’ve been ignoring it and just ploughing forward trying my best. Maybe I need to change it up a little. I quite often do not eat my syns at all, not even 1 – this is because the food I have fills me up and it’s free! The first few weeks as I said in my last post I think I tried harder to make sure I ate at least 5 a day, so I had little treats, did eat some syns, but also filled up on the free goodies, so in todays lunch I added a packet of Hula Pufts! 3.5 each, it’s a start! I’m sure I’ll have a few with dinner too!
I am also going to start physically writing my food down, I do use the online thing but if I’m on my phone sometimes it’s a faff and I think oh i’ll do it later, then I forget. So keeping it written down will help me stay focused.
I blame all of this entirely on Monday, even though it happened over the weekend, the dreaded monday woe kicked in early! DAMN!