WOOT WOOT!

WOOT WOOT!

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! Considering I was panicing (again) about the fact I went to the pub on Sunday and ate my weight in waffle and brownie calzone I am OVER THE MOON!!!   It is SUCH a good feeling to know you can have a good time and still pull it right on back.  I have also started running again, I took a week off – I was tired and ratty and I have discovered in life, if nothing else, it pays to step back if you are not enjoying something and start it again when you feel better – back on the treadmill Monday and LOVED IT.  That much that I signed up and the eldest up for the Colour Run next June! MADNESS!!  But by that time I hope to be able to run 5k without dying,  it is a surprise on the C25k (yeah I dropped the 10k one I was pushing there tbh) when you go from walking/jogging in repetitions of 90 seconds and on week three BOOM 90 jogging, 90 walking, THREE MINUTES jogging, three minutes walking – twice.  THREE MINUTES!

Probably loads of fit ppl reading this going HA! THREE MINUTES! but for a flabby girl with bad knees and a hate for moving faster than 4km an hour unless there is a cake dangling from a string, its TOUGH. But I did it, I  reached out twice to knock it down from 6kmph but I didn’t, I did the full 3 minutes twice without giving in.

So to me, that is a gold star and a HALF!  So last night was a really nice surprise to top off a really stressful day, really nice!

I have been trying to sleep better too, I have got into a pattern of bed between 12-1am and up again between 6-7am and it was killing me, I’ve been in bed by 11pm the last few nights,  and not waking til 7am and slowly I am feeling more human, so sleep definitely is not for the weak, it’s for the sensible.  Although I do fear I am becoming a nan – I have a new found love of beetroot,  cardigans and the urge to learn crochet.

GET OFF MY LAWN!

WELL!

WELL!

Well!  A little gain, but I am ok with it!

Yep, but some absolute miracle I only gained 0.5lbs!  Not too shabby, and I didn’t do my entire C210K last week either because I wasn’t feeling so hot, so I guess maybe if I had have done that as normal I may have had a maintain.  Weird to think of being chuffed about a gain, but I am not chuffed I gained, I am happy to have not gained MORE!

Back on it like a car bonnet this am, although I do need to mix it up a bit, I am getting bored with the same old food all the time, so I have to look up some recipes, get some new ideas, sort out my life so I have time to fit in all the things I want to do, it’ll be ok!

YAY!

Countdown

Countdown

Here we are, it’s weigh day and I know, I don’t think, I KNOW I have gained this week and I am dreading it.

Sounds stupid doesn’t it? You drink a bottle of port then eat like 4 BP garage sandwiches with the meal deal crisps, a mcd’s large meal and then some fried chicken at night you know you’re gonna gain weight, but at the TIME you feel like death so you just don’t care.  Salad isn’t your friend with a hangover, everyone knows that.

But I also haven’t done the start of my C210K running this week yet either, and I feel guilty!  It’s only myself that I am letting down here so I need to build a bridge and job on over it, but I usually do Mon/Weds/Fri – but yesterday I felt like so much ass, today I feel like a bit more ass.  I think I’m getting a cold, there is a nasty virus floating about work so it’s no surprise but this also leads us to NOPESVILLE – when I am ill I do one of two things – eat nothing OR eat everything.  After my weekend of rampaging on food and booze I think I’m in an eat everything mood. NONONO! I CANNOT LET THIS HAPPEN!

I was moaning about it to anyone that would listen and everyone has said the same thing – since being on SW I have lost or maintained EVERY week – if (when) I gain this week then there are a few things to remember:

1.  I will know WHY I gained, because I was a lardo.

2. It will come off again.

3. You’re allowed to fall off the wagon at times, you’re only human.

4. It is NOT the end of the world, it’s a blip – a bad week, don’t let it get you down.

I am not one to blow my own trumpet but I have done well, maybe not as well as I could have done, but I’ve lived whilst eating better, had my slice of pizza and lost, so I know it can be done.  This weekend I wasn’t balanced, that’s my own fault, but it’s ok! ITS OK!

But for the first week ever I am not looking forward to weigh in, but then I am not feeling well either. I considered not going but like I said a few posts back, that helps nothing, the best thing to do when lying in a pool of drool and disappointment after falling off the wagon – is to get right back on it.

It’ll be a gut punch to have to put a + next to my pic this week tho!  I did have a lovely time in London, but next time I think my need to please the scales may outweigh the desire to nod off in a drunken stupor after planting mini burgers on my friend as she’s sleeping.

FOR SURE.

HEY YOU GUISSEEEE!

HEY YOU GUISSEEEE!

I AM SO HAPPY!   I really didn’t think I would have lost this week, I was expecting another maintain week, as I had my daughters party at which I hoovered up Pizza, Sausages and Cake like nobody’s business!  But I think what I have learnt all these weeks now, is that you can have a bit of what you want, if you just don’t go full force mental all week with it.  One day straying a bit off plan isn’t the end of the world, you CAN still lose weight, as long as you remain calm and sensible the rest of the time, and that pleases me greatly.

I have been reading a lot lately about people who have had gastric bands, or bypasses, or are doing the 5:2, or the Cambridge Diet, or even pills.. and I have seen quite a bit of resentment towards people who manage to do it without any of those things, and enjoy it, and it’s really weird.     I haven’t gone on any crazy purges (which I did used to have an issue with), I haven’t had anything fitted, or removed, I haven’t cut everything out of my diet in a bid to lose weight, but that’s whats worked for me.  I am happy with the way I am doing it, and I wouldn’t want to do it any other way.

It all comes back to what I have said before, it doesn’t feel like a diet, it’s a lifestyle change.  I admit I used to hate the idea of eating salad or carrot sticks and houmous for lunch or adding beetroot to things cos EW to all those things.  But now? Now I bloody love those things! Not because I HAVE to, but because I actually enjoy it!  Is it because I am seeing a loss in my weight and a raise in how healthy I feel?? Who knows, but I am seeing it as a blessing.

I am also seeing a lot of fat shaming things, and I am fat, I haven’t always been, but I love food that is bad for me and I hate exercise, so I only have myself to blame. I am trying to be less fat for my confidence, my health and for ME, not for anybody else.  I would never fat shame anyone, I might try and help people who have EXPRESSED they want help with losing weight, by just talking about how I have done it and I am by NO means an expert at all, but I can just say well I do this! and that! and it works –  but the shoe also fits the other foot.  People do “weight loss shame” too,  everyone I have encountered personally have been SO supportive of me, congratulating me, egging me on, telling me to keep with it – but I do read a lot of stuff where people seem negative and jealous that people are doing well, or making a change in their lives.  I guess maybe sometimes people that are losing/have lost weight may come across as condescending, and I do hope I never com across like that – but I think a majority of us are just like OMG YAY ITS WORKING WOOO!  But don’t think that it doesn’t happen the other way around, it does.

There is no shame in being proud of your size, or wanting to be smaller, it’s what works for YOU, yourself – not everyone else.

That being said I do get frustrated when people do not help themselves, do not be surprised if you come to me for advice or help and you are going to ignore every single word I say to you, that I either stop helping you, or want to punch you in teh face.   I get not everything works for everyone, but if you truly want to do it, then commit.  That was always my issue, I couldn’t keep it up, but so far I have lost more than I have on ANY other diet, without feeling on a diet, so I am truly committed.  I am even doing my C210K and I really didnt’ want to the other night, but knew if I didn’t do it one night, I would make excuses for the others and it would snowball and eventually, I’d end up back in the same loop of weight loss then weight gain, and being sad and depressed about my weight again.

Just do your thing, and respect others doing theirs, whatever it is.

Hello!

Hello!

Sup, nuggets? MMM NUGGETS!

WELL! I’ve had a pretty darn tootin’ good week – but I don’t think I’ve lost anything again! BOO! I had a bit of a meltdown on my groups FB page and was all WAAAAAH, but like people pointed out, I lost 7lbs over two weeks, not losing for a week or two isn’t a bad thing, it could be that my body is adjusting, and no matter what I am still putting healthier things into it.

Sometimes with SW I don’t think I eat enough, some days I don’t have any syns at all, I rarely reach 15, so next week I think I am going to try and start eating at LEAST my 5 a day, I did that for the first two weeks and oh look, I lost weight!  But the scales will tell tomorrow, also I’ve measured myself, so maybe I’ll have lost half an inch or something instead of a lb!

I did my first attempt yesterday at the Slimming World Roulade.  Boy oh BOY was I surprised at how well it turned out and how tasty it was! Definitely no Victoria Sponge with lashings of buttercream, but a good fix for a sweet tooth.

Here it is! I was soooo proud of it! I honestly thought it would taste like cold sugary omelette with yoghurty soft cheese and fruit, but it didn’t and it definitely did the trick,  that whole thing up there is 3syns for the ENTIRE thing, and that only happened because I shoved a White Chocolate Options sachet in with the Quark mixture for a bit of a better taste.

Here is the recipe:

Serves 1-6 (depending on how greedy you’re feeling!)

Virtually syn-free on all plans

Ingredients:

250g quark

4 eggs

5 tablespoons granulated sweetener

1 teaspoon baking powder (0.5 syns)

2 x 1 teaspoons vanilla extract

100g 0% fromage frais (or muller light/whatever)

fruit of your choice, or you could use jam (2 syns per tablespoon)

Method:

Separate the eggs and beat the whites until stiff

In another bowl, mix the yolks, 1 teaspoon vanilla extract, baking powder, half the quark and 4 tablespoons of the sweetener

Whisk half of the egg whites into the yolks mixture, then carefully fold in the rest

Pour mixture into a tray lined with baking paper. Bake in a pre-heated 180C oven for 20 minutes or until golden and cooked

Mix the remaining quark, fromage frais, 1 tablespoon sweetener and 1 teaspoon vanilla extract (I added White Chocolate Options at this point too – 2.5 syns)

Spread the fromage frais mixture over the cooled cake and top with fruit (I used 150g raspberries) or jam or whatever (remember to syn!)

Roll up and serve

The eldest child had some, other ppl had some, some looked at it and was like LOLNOPE – but overall, I am impressed!

GOD BLESS THE FOOD ANOMALY THAT IS QUARK!

It’s the “Peak” of the Week

It’s the “Peak” of the Week

HOW IS IT A PEAK! I AM SO HUNGRY! LOL!

Oh god, I have to laugh or i’d cry! I am still finding this a struggle and I am unsure as to why, I’ve done it before – hell, I did it a few weeks ago but this week I am just sooooooOoooOOOoooOOo HUNGRY!

I have been keeping a track on my planner (PS: If you are on WW and want to be my pal, friend, buddy, chum – my name is Heatherfev21!) and yesterday I did the good old breakfast banana again, and then my daily coffee at work at 10am – well it’s from the coffee place here, so I count it as 2 points, then for lunch I had a sandwich and I have to tell you it was a bit underwhelming.

The thing with Salad is it fills you up at the time, then you grow hungry… but then you can snack on fruit! I found having a sandwich didn’t fill me up at all, and I was still hungry – lesson learnt.  I think Carbs is my downfall really, I love them and I don’t have many meals without Carbs, but I don’t have much protein, that is another thing I need to change.

For tea I only had around 12 points left and Tuesdays are a long day for me, work until 5, then my youngest has Rainbows at 5.30, and I have to pick her up again at 6.30 and by the time I get home I really don’t want to cook a huge dinner!   This is where I need to learn to prep.  So I looked in the fridge, and the cupboards, and the freezer and was like UGH WHAT DO I WANT?! My eldest had chosen a ready meal, my youngest just wanted a snack as she’d eaten at her various after school clubs, so I opted for Crumpets and Scrambled Egg! OH MY GLOB, it was delicious.  I added a little butter and cheese to the eggs (well within allowance) and the crumpets were so soft, it was gorgeous! I didn’t know what to expect, they aren’t foods i’d normally put together, but I was well chuffed.

Went to bed hungry tho, woke up hungry, still hungry.. and now I have a massive headache to boot – that’s more down to the fact I don’t sleep much at the minute I think.

But yeah not a bad day, if only I can stop feeling so sodding hungry!   What snacks do you guys have? I tend to opt for fruit as it’s free, or I do get Graze boxes, so I will occasionally have one of those but I often go UGH, FOUR POINTS FOR SOME SEEDS? REALLY and end up going without, but then that’s what makes me snack attack!

Oh dear..